Word Vomit

I'm an ambitious person at heart, sometimes overly ambitious. And a perfectionist. I get so frustrated sometimes because I want my work, and my life, to be a thing of beauty. I want to be an excellent merchandiser, I want to be a skilled stylist, I want to be an amazing writer. I want to be great. But I get so bogged down with how much I think everything I do sucks. Now I know I'm the bomb at what I do but I always feel like I can do better.

*Pause* why am I writing this like an English paper?

I have all these amazing ideas, but not enough courage to turn them into actions. Sometimes I get discouraged. I don't want anything I do to be boring and typical. Like this blog. I get caught up in what the "top bloggers" are writing about, so much that I don't even feel like making a post. It's frustrating because I love fashion, and I love to write. Hell I'm great at doing anything that involves both. I just don't see that translating in my work.      *SUPREME FRUSTRATION*

I saw a friend's post on Facebook that said creative people get to a point when they feel like everything they do is good but not good enough, but the key is to keep pumping out work. That's exactly where I am, but the latter is whats tripping me up. I just don't know how to manifest whats in my mind into a reality.

Sucks.

Hopefully this stage will pass soon, because I really want to create beautiful things. I just wish my creativity, ambition, and courage would get on the same page.